Afraid of change

Oh change, I do not like you. Even as a kid I mourned when we sold our ugly, old suburban. Or when we upgraded our table and chairs. And the tragedy that ensued when we moved from my childhood home. I am a strange person I realize. Even when the change is for the better I sulk. So I have always been reluctant for change. This is why I probably will never move out of this old house. All that said, I am realizing I am in a period of massive changes. My coffee shop needed major changes, so we made them. It was hard. I really didn't want to do it. But it needed to happen. My sister left for Africa. A sister who is my closest friend. Oh is there anything else left that can change. Yes. Now one of my close friends who has helped so much at the coffee shop has grown up and gotten herself a real-full-time-with-health-benefits kind of a job, so now she has to leave us. Oh sad day. It doesn't sound like much I suppose but all these changes have been within about a months time and well that's just too many changes for me. But I have to believe God has a plan for me and for the coffee shop. And the more changes that occur the more I realize I am not in control, nor have I ever been in control. I need to let go. I need to trust in the Lord.
Proverbs 3:5-6. Time for change

To Grow

Today is the day to grow, to take a leap of faith, to change your thoughts, your patterns, your circumstances. Take that first step. That first step is the hardest to take. But in life each day that you only think about changing your (fill in the blank) but not take a step to change it only sets you back further.
Mostly, this is a reminder to myself.

Things I've been wanting to change for quite some time.
Eat healthier
Exercise
Be more organized
Get more involved in my community
Follow my love of photography

So have I done anything? I'm happy to report that I am cutting down on my late night snacking. That I run, albiet about once or twice a week, but hey gotta start somewhere. That I am much more involved my my coffee shop and staff. And for the first time ever, I am taking a photography class. I am still trying to motivate myself to being more organized :( I will have to take that step soon and I'm sure I will be glad that I did when I do! So what are you waiting for? Take that step and you will be so glad you did!